My pain is caused by my pleasure And my soul mate lives in your body I can't get you out of my head It never goes away
( an au where stiles is a werewolf. can be because he was bitten by peter hale instead of scott, or possibly after he was offered the bite. maybe he was always a werewolf. )
[ Okay, that wasn't necessarily true. The way Derek moved with the tug made him a little surprised, then pleased, and he leaned down to nose at his cheek. ]
Especially my Alpha. Who knows what you'd be thinking about me?
[ It's half joking, half serious, but he doesn't respond when Derek moves into the kiss, his fingers stroking around the curve of his head and then cupping his face. ]
[ Stiles can feel his instincts kick up, his own eyes flashing gold in response to Derek's, and gives a small growl. Then he shakes his head, the gold fading away. ]
Mostly. It's still sore and raw, but it should be good soon. Scarred, though.
[ It makes him shiver. The whole situation does, becoming Derek's equal, Derek's mate, while letting him mouth-fondle the bite mark when he should be in school. It's exciting. ]
The circle of life? [ He jokes, but he brushes his fingers along Derek's hairline, a smile on his face. ]
[ Stiles rests his chin on Derek's shoulder so he doesn't have to actually look at him. ]
After my mom - my dad was so upset, I didn't want to show him how upset I was too, make him worry. So I would ramble and talk and pretend like everything was fine, even when I was having panic attacks.
I just never started talking, after that, I just kept deflecting.
[ He may not be able to see Stiles face, but he could still hear his heart, his breath and feel him through being so close. Derek's gaze dropped as his listened.
Deflecting was something he did himself, afraid of what might happen if he opened up, afraid he would hurt more than he already had.
He frowned not sure if this was the time to console Stiles, so in like, he opened up instead even if it was difficult to find the words at first. ]
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[ He huffs and keeps a sort of stoic expression on. ]
Do you?
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[ Stiles smirks a little at that stoic expression, a hand coming up to tug at his hair gently. ]
Do I? I'd like to, a little.
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Maybe you just aren't pushing yourself hard enough.
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[ Okay, that wasn't necessarily true. The way Derek moved with the tug made him a little surprised, then pleased, and he leaned down to nose at his cheek. ]
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[ But it was a topic he would drop soon enough with Stiles being as close as he was. ]
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[ He hums the words out and then rubs his cheek against Derek's before he turns his head to find his mouth and kiss him, gently. ]
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[ He hummed, moving into the kiss, and running a hand along his back to draw him closer. ]
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[ It's half joking, half serious, but he doesn't respond when Derek moves into the kiss, his fingers stroking around the curve of his head and then cupping his face. ]
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[ He mumbles, leaning into the touch as he pulls back from the kiss. His eyes spark red, watching for Stiles to return the call. ]
Has your wrist healed?
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Mostly. It's still sore and raw, but it should be good soon. Scarred, though.
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It should be healed completely by tonight.
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I know. I mean, I figured as much, you know.
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[ Stiles seems oddly excited, eyes flashing gold again, before he closes them a little when Derek kisses his wrist, watching him. ]
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[ He presses his wrist against Derek's mouth, his cheek, a little teasingly. ]
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It'll complete everything.
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The circle of life? [ He jokes, but he brushes his fingers along Derek's hairline, a smile on his face. ]
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[ He gestures between them. ]
Equals.
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I know, Derek.
[ He presses forward after a moment, insinuating himself into Derek's lap, nosing against his jawline. ]
I listen to you, you listen to me... maybe you start opening up to the rest of us a little.
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...I'll be expecting the same in return.
[ Though he could already see that it was going to take some time for him to open up like that, not just to Stiles but the others as well. ]
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[ It's defensive at first but then Stiles sighs and relaxes against Derek. ]
Yeah, I know, I need to get better at actually using my words.
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[ Stiles rests his chin on Derek's shoulder so he doesn't have to actually look at him. ]
After my mom - my dad was so upset, I didn't want to show him how upset I was too, make him worry. So I would ramble and talk and pretend like everything was fine, even when I was having panic attacks.
I just never started talking, after that, I just kept deflecting.
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Deflecting was something he did himself, afraid of what might happen if he opened up, afraid he would hurt more than he already had.
He frowned not sure if this was the time to console Stiles, so in like, he opened up instead even if it was difficult to find the words at first. ]
...Laura was the only one I ever told about Kate.
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i feel like i should mention that i'm using 'erred' in the middle english sense of the word
there... there's another way to use it?!...
dictionary says it can be used as "mistaken"........ .. .
i guess but i'm just like who would
that is a very good question
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I - I swore I responded to this, i deleted the email and everything
sfsdhig maybe you forgot to send it through? It happens.
but i sent it! my phone must have messed up
sob probably ;n;
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dfsoagjs did you really
i.. did. now i want a fic of laura and derek watching spn...
and judging all the supernatural stuff
"Silver? Really?"
"I wish salt worked like that."
"How can she even eat those fries if she's a demon?"
"this show doesn't even work by its own rules!"
"Maybe we should turn it off......"
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i apologize for any horrible typos that may be including in my tags as i am presently drunk
lol
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